The Last Resort. Coming here on 11th June 2011. I hope i get to make it, really. I want to go badly. Things have been rapidly changing. You know what I've figured i didn't have real friends after all because real friends don't drop you when you fall, when you did something bad or mistakes or killed a cat. Real friends stick by you when you are down, fucked up and at your worst. I did that for most of them and yet, their backs were turned on me but hey but that's okay. I've seen everything in a different light now. I mean it's harder because i am on tag, but it teaches me a lot about discipline and family values. I have ignored my family a lot and being at home just connects me more you know? I am glad in a way, i don't feel like i am missing out because i don't do much when i am out. I mean we just sit around and drink, yes we spend time with each other but hey that's about it. Life should be more than that, it should include reality and not just sitting around in Cityhall. There should be bonding in more interesting and fun ways, that we grow from and learn form each other so that we could be a better wolf pack, a better family. We can't just simply do nothing. I mean there's so many i want to say but you know what? I'm just tired. Of all of it. Everything is just fake. People are like that i guess, even though they claim that we are a family, they promise you they would not do this or that and that we stand by eachother no matter right or wrong. It's never like that, and i had to learn it the hard way, but I've learned it good. It makes me feel more aware of everything now, and i am not just going to follow blindly next time. We need to have a vision for everything, equality and brotherhood. Skinheads need to stick together. In reality of where i am living, everything is a lie.